No Love

Im not even sure where to start!!! there is just so much going on in my life and in my head. I guess ill start with last weekend.
So your family was over at the house. Kari and Katie were hanging out and i was just chilling by myself. its not because of anything they did i just was wanting to leave them alone. and if im being completely honest with you and myself, i was really depressed because you werent here. so anyways, i was just laying in my bed with my IPOD on and the lights off (not because i was going to sleep but because i didnt think i would be in my room long so i didnt turn the lights on) and im sure i dosed a bit. well it was a little after 9 (your family had left) and i got up to check my email, myspace, facebook, and your blog. apparently kari had just gotten on, but i asked her if i could get on for like 5 minutes and then i was going to bed (which was honestly my intentions) and she could have the computer for the rest of the night. she was okay with it, so i sat on our stairs to wait for her to finish what she was doing. but after a couple minutes i realized that she had changed webpages and was reading something different. So i was like "you know let me get on real quick." well she told me she wasnt going to get off until i got off the stairs and went down them. we bickered back and forth and then the fight escalated and somehow my parents got involved.
we fought about the computer and then that fight escalated as well, and then we were just screaming at eachother. somewhere in the fight my dad told my mom that he wanted me out of his house and that he didnt care where she took me as long as i was out. we both kida ignored him but later on my mom did say that she though i should move out.
the next night they took away our phones and my IPOD (and after some resistance and several fights over the next 36 hours, kari gave up her IPOD too) then the rest of the week we were pretty much we were on lock-down and continued to fight. so then i think you know the rest until i ended up at Aunt Marcias.

well, as you know my parents called last night and we argued about when i can get my stuff. then i got really pissed today when kari gave me some mail that i had got, and my mother had already opened it. (ill elaborate a bit in a sec) and then i called my voicemail and found that my mother had changed the outgoing message saying that that was no longer my phone and too call "her mother" if they wanted to get ahold of me. she also changed my code so i couldnt change it back. i was REALLY pissed. (well, at least she's stuck paying for the phone for the next 1 1/2 years. haha) anyways, so after school i called my dads phone to talk to kari about the stuff she was going to bring to school for me that i absolutely needed. well when i asked her about my mail she said that my mom had just handed it to her when she got home, but it was all opened and apparently i had gotten into SVSU(yay!!). i was LIVID!!! so when i talked to my mom, i told her not to open my mail and at one point she said she did it because i open her mail. for the record- i open mail from the school that is technically addressed to her but also says RE: Kelly (& Kari) Borse. thats why i open it. - so anyways, she hung up on me several times, and the last time i ended up in tears over my frustration. (i dont cry and i havent cried yet over this whole moving out situation)

thankfully marcia, stacy and amy (especially marcia and amy) have been awesome. when i got here they immediately started making plans for my transportation to school. marica is not going to charge me rent but i promised i would try to help out as much as i can. amy got me a couple days working at MCSPORTS as a greeter for the holidays. ill make a $50 MCSPORTS giftcard everytime i work so that will be cool. and stacy said that as soon as they have an opening at the store (which her husband owns and she works) she'll let me know. so im really thankful for them. oh, and im spending thanksgiving with amy, stacy and their dad.
it would all work out really great if my parents would get over the fact that i moved out and just leave me alone. its as if they're that i moved out, like im a bad person or something. whatever. i would say that i dont care, but i do. not about them, but about how they are going to protray me to all my other family. no one wants to piss off mom, which means my brothers will be of no help to me.

i find the following humorous: i dont think my dad thought i would really move out. (i also find this next part sad and yet still humerous) because he didnt think i would really move out, he obviously doesnt know me very well.

okay, on to other subjects:
i am sorely missing my IPOD!! nuff said :)

I got into Saginaw Valley State University and Northern Michigan University which i am completely excited!! yay for me!!

your mom told marcia (btw, she says she loves you) that you were planning on coming up next summer and she kept saying how you were coming to see me. i dont know if you are coming to see me, but i know that you really want to see me. anyways, it makes me feel happy :) and i cant wait to see you!

there's a bunch more going on in my head but actually i dont know what else to write and honestly this was a long blog. Sorry!!

love you!!

xoxo & peace
kb

(your mom updated us on ricky and im glad to hear that overall, hes going to be okay :) )

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