Under the Knife

so, as ive warned, im pretty fucked up. but arent we all in our own unique ways. I have alot going on in my head and i just need to get it down.

first off, my mom moved out of my parents house and into her friend tiff's house, which is located about 3 minutes from me. we all new it was coming, and im not sure how permanent it is. i guess we'll see. im not sure how i feel about the whole thing, i think because it hasnt quite sunk in, or possibly, though less likely, it doesnt phase me because im so unsurprised by the whole matter. (fyi, im not sure who my mom wants to knw, so please keep it on the dl for the time being?) but obviously i hope that my parents can work things out and stay together

so the main thing that sparked this blog is this (let me start from the beginning and ill get to the point): i got a phone call from my dad a couple hours before the super bowl. he had called to tell me that he loved me (despite what others were implying) and we had a short but kind of significant conversation. today i had to ride the bata bus home, forcing me to hang around kingsley for an hour after school so i decided to go over and hang with dad and kari for a little while. mom called me a little while ago to ask about my old phone and she asked how dad was doing (she had talked to him, but obviously not about how he was acting or holding up). i told her he seemed fine and then she asked about the phone call. i told her the jist of it and she told me that she has gotten after him for not getting in touch with me really at all.
well, i was talking to marcia about it (this is me getting to the point) and she told me that my mom and her had had a convo about me yesterday and that she had told my mom that she believes im depressed. she went on to say that she could tell, and that i act just like amy did when she was my age (amy was admitted into the hospital a little while back for severe depression). she said that she senses that i feel like no one gives a shit about me. she didnt say much else (at least not that i can remember), and im not really sure what my mom said. marcia thinks that might be why my mom got after my dad to reach out to me. idk

so yea, im not sure what to think about that.


btw, i posted a 2 blogs in row - they were on 2 different subjects and written @ 2 different times in the day so check out "Stupid Girl (?)" as well.

Under the Knife - Rise Against