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my parents suck!! i was informed, by kari, that saturday night after the bday party, my mother sat and talked shit about me. this is the post she left me on facebook after i asked her what my mother was saying:
"Mom was talking about how you have no rules, how you are mooching off everyone, but refusing help from them, how you have been spending so much, how you got talked into ordering graduation invitations when you could have just made them, how you are gonna realize what the real worlds like..."

i was extremely frustrated by all of this. let me brake it down,
"you have no rules" i have no rules because 1) i do what im supposed to do 2) how many rules can you possibly give a single, responsible, no-car 17year old girl? 3) IM ON MY OWN NOW!!!. technically I am in charge of MYSELF!!!

"mooching off everyone" true, marcia is not chargin me rent. but i also come home most days and clean up the house, to some degree, and i buy groceries such as milk, eggs and cereal when we need it. this was the agreement made with marcia when she let me move in. mom is unaware that there is an agreement, so OBVIOUSLY im a moocher. whatever mother, mind your own dam business.

***OKAY, this is the BIG one:

"but refusing help from them": OH MY FUCKING GOD!!! I CANNOT refuse help they DIDNT offer. they have offered me ZERO help. they have actually tried to make some things more difficult, such as getting the rest of my stuff out of the house, which i still havent done. i DID ASK THEM to get my childhood pictures around for the senior video and yearbook, and mom complied. THATS IT!! i will say the important part again: I CANNOT refuse help they HAVENT offered!!!

"you have been spending too much" okay, 1) none of her business, because i dont live with her and more importantly, because its MY money that I earned MYSELF!! 2) i have been keeping a VERY close eye on my spending. she just thinks because i spent a little over $100 on Graduation stuff that im blowing my money. whatever!!

"how you were talked into buying graduation announcements when you could have just made them" okay, again, she is just assuming and confused. she assumed that i was talked into it. i wanted graduation announcements and amy merely agreed with me. (and im not even sure how my mother knew they agreed. i think she assumed that i would have had to be talked into it) i think she is confused on what the graduation announcement is. i bought the smallest package of announcements, 25, so that i could use some for scrapbooking and keepsakes, and some to give to the very important people in my life. i think she thinks they are graduating party (open house) invitations, which i DO plan on making myself. i just wanted some official graduation annoucements for the reasons already stated.

"how you are gonna realize what the real worlds like..." seriously!?!? seriously?!?! i REALIZE what the "real worlds" like. just because i wasnt the one paying the bills, doesnt mean i didnt realize what was going on. i am constantly stressed in the winter, that i actually dread winter coming because i know that when it does, our family spirals downward, because we are even shorter on money than usual.

so yea, thats whats been bothering me that last few days.
school is 'eh' as usual. somehow, both my ride and myself overslept this morning so i didnt get to school until 9:30, which meant i missed TBA. not a huge deal. i just hung out in the commons watching VH1 while i did the homework i neglected last night. :) then i ate lunch, went to psych, and then i skipped advanced bio and rode the BATA back to Fife. i probably should have just stayed home today, but i did get a few things accomplished at school so whatev. anyways, i then cleaned the upstairs room. Dawn lived up there, but now she lives with a boyfriend, but left the upstairs trashed with most of her shit. it took me about 3-4 hours to clean and organize it. now all i need is for her to come get everything.

i think thats everything. for now. mwhahaha lol ;)

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