okay, i knw, im sorry i havent posted in a long long time. thats for a variety of reasons 1) there've been multiple times in the last 5 weeks (!!) that i havent had regular access to the computer to write anything 2) not in the mood to blog 3) to busy to blog 4) etc reasons...
- so whats going on with me. first and foremost i am FINALLY off the coach and back into my own bedroom! yay!! im much less sleep deprived so that makes life much easier.
- I really miss shaye and the girls (and chad and jordan) they were just so much fun to have here regulary
my parents situation is just plain fucked up. my mother is not living at home. while i understand why she left and the stuff she has done for herself, my heart still tears for my dad. he is severely depressed and i while i want to there isnt anything i can do to help him. idk, and then yesterday i spent the day with my mom and we talked and i discussed and learned some interesting things. ...actually i think the most frustrating point about all this is that i dont think anyone actually understands or knows what i think and feel about the situation. they all just assume they know where im at. no one seems to see that while im not still living at home like kari, im still having a difficult time with all of this. i feel guilty, helpless, anger, sad, frustrated, and everything in between.
this week is HOSA States, which im super excited for. its a health competition organization. im more excited to be spending the time with Chelsea and Brooke more than competeing. it was really nice that i got to see them for a 1/2 hr earlier this past week. they came running up and gave me big hugs telling me hw much they miss me, which of coarse gave me warm fuzzies. lol
anyways, i spent the day with heather and the kids. Jewel Denise Huffman entered the world on March 22 and she is absolutely beautiful!! braydon is such a cute kid too! heather is a really good mom and sometimes i think my brother doesnt deserve her.
stacy and dan had their baby, Evelyn "Ev-vie" Rosemary Ellis on March 24. she is cute too and stacy is quite the proud mom. it sure fits her well.
living here at marcias has improved since returning to my bedroom. lewis and i fight semi-frequently and we are kinda in a stand-off currently. lol whatev i really couldnt care less.
things with friends are going good i would say. cameron, i think, is picking up on some hints ive been dropping so idk. my preggers friend is still in limbo with her life and im just trying to be there for her right now.
yesterday i went down to my university for the first time and had an interview and stuff for freshmen admissions into the nursing program so cross your fingers!!
basically just been spending alot of time on school and filling out (and freaking out about) scholarship apps. again cross your fingers!
im COMPLETELY broke hence the lack of anything really interest to share. i do have a summer job lined up, im returning to my position as a health aid at interlochen summer arts camp.
idk, all this has made me pretty motivated and determined to get myself out of all this shit. so actually listen to the song for my post. its a female pop vocalist (i think) but its a good song. and btw, do you get extremely annoyed when songs you've loved and listened to for months makes it big? like "Second Chance" is all of a sudden a big hit and every one's like "i love this song" "this is my song" type shit and im like "this is MY song and ive been listening to it since NOVEMBER!!!!" Second Chance was like my anthem when i moved out. i still frequently listen to the playlist you gave me JT. anyway, its just frustrating and it happens with alot of the songs i listen to (partially because i spend hours on itunes and music sites searching new music)
*Sigh* okay, love you!! and ill definately keep you updates more frequently in my life's happenings. (cuz i def wonder sometimes wht you must think at my facebook posts. i knw i laugh at urs cuz ur complaining about work or planning for another party and/or bowling or some shit. not to mention the shows and sports you watch lol. man do i love you jt. lol)
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